Why I do the things I do

This is me thinking aloud.

We do what we do because we want to - this is passion.

We do what we do because we need to - this is responsibility.

We ask for things to happen because we want them to happen. Hoping that our prayers will be answered, we look forward to that particular day. However, it doesn't end there. Almost always, we have to give up something or at the least, compromise.

Spidey said, "with great power comes great responsibility". 

I'd like to believe that I am passionate in what I do - that I do the things I do because I want to.

But there are those times, just like now, when I find myself asking that busabos, "What are you doing this for?". I find myself being pulled by two forces: 

1) the first one telling me that I asked for this, so I have to live up to the expectations of people and be responsible (panindigan na lang). As much as I want to be positive and tell myself that this disengagement that I am going through is part of the process - "test kumbaga". And that once I am able to win over these, I will be a better person.

2) the second one is the skeptic child who asks, "what for?" and tells me, "you are just wasting your time!". Who are we to know if the things that we do today will be really worth something someday? But hey! This skeptic child wants to be certain and needs a panacea - "sigurista lang". We only live once and we can never turn back time or take back the time we spend in foolish stuff.

Busy people as much as people who want to appear busy would often complain, "so much to do, so little time". It sends a message that the person is having a hard time deciding what to do with the (little) time that he or she actually has. If I were to train myself, I would share the concept of Q2 Time Management with this busabos - what's urgent VS. what's important, learn to put first things first! BIG WORDS indeed! 

Everything that we do today is instrumental in shaping our future selves.

I guess, after writing my thoughts down, the dilemma is not between doing things out of passion or out of responsibility, it is more of being ready to what the future holds - how would would the things that we do now, both those which we willingly do and those which we are compelled to do, shape our future?

Problem solved? Nah! But at least I was able to write my thoughts down and establish a more sound dilemma (or so I think). I might also got you thinking of the things you do. Sorry if I did. Again, this is just me, thinking aloud.