“Who doesn’t long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you without being told?” I’m sorry for not being the soul mate I know you’re longing for – someone who deserves you.
How could I have been so selfish and unkind to someone who has shown me nothing but pure genuine love? I got used to being taken cared of that I neglected to reciprocate.
Now I’m left with no resort but to wait for your verdict. Fearing that the battle has already been lost, I drown myself with memories we shared.
You were there with me from the beginning. Held my hand when I was in doubt and guided me when I was out of focus. You were more than a lover, you have been my partner in crime for the last 5 years. I may not have been able to reciprocate the love and care that you’ve unselfishly shown but I am thankful that I was able to share the past 5 years with you.
You said to take my time and use this space that we have between us right now to re-think things – that this might be my chance to move out and change. The same thing which we discussed before when our journey almost ended. But, you didn’t give up on us then. You never gave up on me.
I don’t know what to think of or to wish for right now. One thing is for sure, I miss you already and this is just Day 1. The circumstances which I brought us to are far different from the ones we had before. The future is really uncertain but hey, I lived with that for the past 5 years and I don’t mind living for the present while I am in your presence.
I still love you but I don’t know what’s the best choice for us now. I pray that God would speak to our hearts and discourse with our minds and bring us to the place where we ought to be.
I am really sorry for hurting you. I really am. I love you. I still do.
