IT’S NOT THE END AFTER ALL–How God rocked my 2012!

 

I’m a whiner – I complain almost about everything and as this year ends, let me correct that by counting my blessings. Here’s the top four (4) blessings which rocked my 2012. Read on as I might have shared some of these moments with you.

1. MY MBA JOURNEY

Since late 4th quarter last year (2011), I’ve been doing some paper works for my application to UP Diliman’s MBA Program. This has been a dream of mine and I’m very grateful that I was able to take the first step to accomplish this in 2012.

Went through the first wave of exams some time in Feb – failed several subjects and attended the Summer Workshops and took the 2nd exam along with a few hundred other aspirants some time April or May – yes, I am not the only one (excused). Fortunately, I passed the second and final wave of exams. June came and with God’s provision, I was able to register three subjects and that was just a start – braved the first term then came 2nd term whose grades aren’t yet out as of this writing – more fun eh?!

2. SUMMER @ ISLA VERDE

As part of the family’s annual itinerary, we spent the holy week at Isla Verde, Batangas. Reunited with cousins from my father side, witnessed Natay’s thirst for the quiet life quenched and basically, rested my troubled self… I’m just blessed to spend this stress-free week with the best support system – NaTay and Kuya.

3. MY 25TH BIRTHDAY

A classic and simple celebration of my 25th birthday with friends. 2012 has been a very busy year but I always find time to sit down, talk with friends and unwind. This has already been our tradition of getting drunk – eh, of updating each other and de-stressing. A simple way to celebrate life – 25 years of blessedness!

4. ATTENDING 2012 KCON

God definitely paved the way for me to attend the 2012 Kerygma Conference. ‘Been attending The Feast with Kuya, Marvin and Natay but the KCON experience as my mentor shared with me if really different. Struggled with my school and work calendar at first but yes! God, thru my kuya, who gave me my KCON ticket for my 25th birthday, paved the way for me to experience KCON, hear God’s message and be blessed.

…and the list goes on! (There are still things which I intend to keep to myself) 

2012 IS THE YEAR – met new people, reunited with relatives and friends, learned new things, unlearned some, got frustrated, excited…and all throughout 2012, and as it has always been, I felt HE was with me – HE made HIS presence felt!

Feng shui experts say that those born on the year of the rabbit will have a hard time this year – well, I am now claiming that this will not be the case for me: I will have a richer experience, will do greater things and achieve greater heights – with my able God who never fails to shine His light through us and amaze us of life’s wonders – 2013 will be BRIGHTER.

Why I do the things I do

This is me thinking aloud.

We do what we do because we want to - this is passion.

We do what we do because we need to - this is responsibility.

We ask for things to happen because we want them to happen. Hoping that our prayers will be answered, we look forward to that particular day. However, it doesn't end there. Almost always, we have to give up something or at the least, compromise.

Spidey said, "with great power comes great responsibility". 

I'd like to believe that I am passionate in what I do - that I do the things I do because I want to.

But there are those times, just like now, when I find myself asking that busabos, "What are you doing this for?". I find myself being pulled by two forces: 

1) the first one telling me that I asked for this, so I have to live up to the expectations of people and be responsible (panindigan na lang). As much as I want to be positive and tell myself that this disengagement that I am going through is part of the process - "test kumbaga". And that once I am able to win over these, I will be a better person.

2) the second one is the skeptic child who asks, "what for?" and tells me, "you are just wasting your time!". Who are we to know if the things that we do today will be really worth something someday? But hey! This skeptic child wants to be certain and needs a panacea - "sigurista lang". We only live once and we can never turn back time or take back the time we spend in foolish stuff.

Busy people as much as people who want to appear busy would often complain, "so much to do, so little time". It sends a message that the person is having a hard time deciding what to do with the (little) time that he or she actually has. If I were to train myself, I would share the concept of Q2 Time Management with this busabos - what's urgent VS. what's important, learn to put first things first! BIG WORDS indeed! 

Everything that we do today is instrumental in shaping our future selves.

I guess, after writing my thoughts down, the dilemma is not between doing things out of passion or out of responsibility, it is more of being ready to what the future holds - how would would the things that we do now, both those which we willingly do and those which we are compelled to do, shape our future?

Problem solved? Nah! But at least I was able to write my thoughts down and establish a more sound dilemma (or so I think). I might also got you thinking of the things you do. Sorry if I did. Again, this is just me, thinking aloud.